Leap of Faith Part 2

For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: ‘If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?’ And whenever the answer has been ‘NO’ for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
— Steve Jobs

Back February 7th I wrote about my Leap of Faith.  I told you that I took a Leap of Faith and promised some details.  

So this is what happened in the past TWELVE months.  After years of working with the elderly and especially dementia, I had a revelation one night.  Yep, this all came to me in one night-granted it took years to reach that night, but still.  

Every day I sat and listened to patients and families and did my best to offer what I could as they suffered with dementia. Dementia is a neuro-degenerative disease that has no cure and no real way of even making it better.  Behavioral changes with paranoia and agitation occur along with memory problems.  In any event, families and patients would open their hearts and tell me what was going on even when sometimes all I had to offer was kindness.  I'll have many more posts of the interview/pictures with these lovely families.


What they gave me was far more than I had to offer them in return.  They shared such beautiful stories of love. They demonstrated love even while in the midst of such difficulty.

February 17, 2015 I came home and the idea that someone needs to tell these stories-these love stories.  My husband suggested that I be their voice.  I should write the stories.  I had the idea to write a book, and had even attended several workshops, but just didn't have clarity until then.   My personality is to over do it in a Clark Griswold kind of way so writing a book just isn't adequate if I can add some pictures too!  I loved photography but had never taken classes or anything.  So, I attended a workshop in March 2015 (shout out to Precision Camera University), invested in some gear and by July started doing some practice shots.  That's right- JULY 2015.  

Fast forward- I have a photo studio in my home that used to be our converted garage and I've progressed to the point that I left my full time job in January.  I am pursuing my dream.  I've started the book with words AND pictures and expect it to be published by October 2016.  Wow!  I've met some wonderful people who helped propel my new career, discovered that I had some real talent and am now taking good care of myself.  I'll describe this is more detail in future blog posts.   Much thanks to my husband for having faith in me and supporting me.  His love and support give me strength.

That's me doing an engagement shoot in Waco, TX.  Beautiful couple and wonderful experience.

That's me doing an engagement shoot in Waco, TX.  Beautiful couple and wonderful experience.

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Taking a Leap of Faith

"For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: 'If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?'  And whenever the answer has been 'NO' for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something."  

Steve Jobs

Who is that chubby older lady with the dark circles around her eyes and the silver roots in her hair?  I had become unrecognizable to myself.  Over the last 2-3 years, I gained weight, was beyond tired, and had little to no motivation to do more than work.  Up at 430am and home after 6pm only to finish my paperwork, go to bed and do it again.  Of course I had no energy.  There was just nothing left and then... I had a vision.  It wasn't just that fat old vision either.   

I knew how I wanted to live my life and I was far from that.  One day I was just hit with a clear plan of what I needed to do and why.   In truth, the destination was more clear than the plan.  It wasn't the fault of anyone or any job and it wasn't a wrong career choice all these years.  It just wasn't right for me any more.  I devoted years to a career- a calling- really.  I loved it but after so many years (40!) it was just wasn't enough.  It hasn't been enough for many years because I missed being creative.   Somewhere along the way I sold out important aspects of my personality in order to make a living and it just wasn't working.   I wasn't honest enough with myself when I looked in the mirror everyday the way Steve Jobs describes.  I lied to myself, but not anymore.

 How did I get so far away from myself?  Why did I get so far away?  Why do any of us?  It's simple and beautiful.  And, you'll need to wait for another post to learn these answers.